It's time for me to stand-up and share something with you all - a group of my blogging peers, my friends from online and friends from the very reality that I now need to face up to..
You see, I have a problem.
I would go further and say it is probably by any definition (loose or otherwise): an addiction.
I have been in denial about it. I had no idea that it had reached such worrying proportions until now.
I have been keeping track of my "activities" over the last month and it would appear that I have allowed this behaviour to dominate my life to a considerable extent For example, over the last four weeks, even a conservative estimate means I have spent the equivalent of approximately six whole days of that time on my addiction. On average it works out that I have been spending over 4 hours each and every single day doing... it.
I will be honest with you, Dear Readers, that most mornings I will wake up and do it, more or less whether I'm truly awake or not. I will also be open enough with you to say that last thing at night you could often find me doing it (although I probably wouldn't welcome the interruption), whether I am sleepy or not. And since I am trying to confront this behaviour of mine and address it, I will state that in the middle of the day when I'm working, it is very likely I'm doing it too... whether I'm busy or not. I just find myself doing it, almost whatever the time of day, almost whatever the circumstances. It doesn't seem to matter. I just keep doing it.
(Rest assured, though, Dear Reader, that I almost exclusively do it within the confines of my own home. Very rarely will I ever do it in a public place.)
I know this is going to sound utterly incredible and I beg your patience in advance....but, according to the records I have kept, I have done it more than 2000 times in this past month. That's over 60 times a day!
I know, I know. I'm appalled too. I really do have a problem. It's time for me to face the music...
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I've already done it another 20 or 30 times since I posted! Eek!
Thank you for posting!